It has taken some time for me to be able to write about this race… The European Cup in Quarteira.
There have been so many mixed feelings after the race that I really needed time to reflect over everything that happened.
I knew that I was coming into this race with only 7 weeks of training in my luggage. I knew the start list would be stronger than any other year; nevertheless I wanted to give it a try.
This year I was feeling calmer than ever and I didn’t really feel any pressure, but I surely wanted to finish the race. When you represent a nation you want to give your best and honour the fact that you have been selected.
I never ended up finishing the race; I was lapped on the 5th lap on the bike which meant I had to pull over. I have never felt as hopeless as I did that very moment. I sat down on the side walk and tears were burning down my cheeks…I just wanted to disappear for a while. I could not really believe what happened.
I was not sad cause I was lapped. I was lapped by two english girls, one of them Lucy Hall who is one of the best cyclists on the WTS curcuit…I was sad because the mistake I had done in the transition park cost me the race.How could I do so many mistakes on such an important race?
I have done so many transitions in life, but never have I done one as bad as I did this time. I came out from the water in the last pack of girls. I was really happy to be among a small pack. I ran to the transition and for some reason I took my bike without putting on the helmet first!! Don’t ask me why I did it, because I have no answer. The referee screamed at me. I dropped my bike, the helmet flew to the ground. I put on the helmet as fast as I could and ran after the group that was disappearing from my site.
I did a poor jump to the bike and I never managed to catch the girls…This was the beginning of the end of my race.
I never really recovered mentally from that point…I was fighting, but yet I was so angry. How could I have done so many stupid mistakes…
I’m ok now, looking ahead of what is coming. This was never any objective for this season, but one wants to make a better result when representing a nation.
A big thanks to everyone who supported me before, during and after the race.